Current mood:

tired

long time no type
Ok. So the last time I left you all in the Soap Opera I like to call my life, Jordan and I had gone through a devestating 24 hour break up (yes, now it seems like a puney day, but for me I didn't know when it would end!). Since then it's been a rocky time but we've done it. For about the first month I had major trust issues, and became as clingy as you can imagine (I'm embarrased to even say that). But then I realized that I need to trust him, and that it's ok if we dont do EVERYTHING together, and that he doesn't have to come over EVERY night. And the more space I gave him, and the less I tried to make it seem like I cared, the more he wanted to be around me. When I stopped putting pressure on him and stopped being needy, then he wanted to be around me and enjoy my company. And now there are no more wedding talks. Well... we say SOMEDAY, but not anytime soon. :) If we're married when we're 25, then cool, well.. when I'm 25 and he's 28, but if not, I know we'll still be together and I'm ok with that. In late september it seemed like things were finally back to normal.. in fact.. it seemed like things were even better than before. And that has lasted! For my birthday he suprised me with Toby Keith tickets, which he woke up early to buy during his week vacation. :) I was soooo suprised and happy! And he even missed his brothers footbal game (it was the first playoff game!) I attempted to sell the tickets, so he wouldn't have to miss it, but that didn't work out. But he was happy to get to take me, and was so adorable for putting up with a country concert. I still have my insecurites, and I need to learn to deal with them, but I can't push them off on him, and let them control our relationship. So all is well... now if only i could find a new job. But that's a story for antoher day. I hope everybody is enjoying their time off at college!